it's all about balance and finding that one person who compliments your life and makes you want to become a better person. I love life and all that it brings...sorrow, joy and beauty. I have been to hell and back with men that I have allowed to abuse me and having that experience has helped me to recognize how abundant life can be. I have had sex with men just to get them to leave me alone even when I didn't want to.. I did not have the power to say NO then. I did not value myself and I hated me. I didn't value men either. That was in another life and I don't live there anymore. Yeah I was numb and I was terrified that if I shed the numbness I would scream, go crazy or die. And I did go crazy and I got angry but I also found a gentle 12 step program that helped me love myself and find my feelings again.

So in the end I would say that if you are numb or devoid of feelings, look for the source of your void. You don't have to figure it all out either in one day...it will probably take a lifetime but the reward of working is that you get to experience your life, your feelings to the very fullest. I won't do it any other way.

Dusty, so true, acutally, the less time spent IN our heads, I believe the better. LIVE the LIFE,